Chapter 11 (RBoC)

When Henry is walking away from the tattered soldier, he hears a lot of noise, and goes to investigate it. He sees what looks to him as the whole army on the road. The young soldier is relieved, since it looks like everyone else is retreating. The infantry then comes, and Henry describes them as looking like a massive serpent, the front line proud with the knowledge that they did what was important. The youth is heart-broken with the thought of never being able to be like them, since he ran away.
The infantry keeps marching, and he tries to think what they ate that makes them want to hurry to battle. Henry realizes that they are heroes, without a doubt, and can sleep at night knowing they do what's right. He wants that, to be able to fight at the right time, and have others look up to him. So Henry debates going back, risking being made fun of among other things. But he just continues walking along side of them, noticing that he is very hungry, and hurts everywhere.
He continues on the trek of self-hatred and following the army, because he wishes to know the outcome. Debating within himself still, he tries to think of excuses for running. Again. Not being able to come up with any good ones, he envies the dead again.
Deciding to go back to the soldiers, Henry can't think of a good explanation of where he was. He also imagines him going into the camp and all of his old buddies making fun of him.

Response- To be honest, Henry makes me frustrated. He just needs to jump right into them and tell the truth to get over it, instead of beating himself up for it!

Question- How much longer am I going to read about Henry hating himself? : )